I was confuse really confuse
Feels like my heart is not telling the truth
My heart is still not sure what to decide
This confusion affects my present life
I cannot hide this anymore
He seems to know that I’m still confuse
Stuck in the middle of my battle
The question is
Am I really in love with him?
Or it just me who is playing fool out of him
I was guilty I know and I was wrong
Can’t decide what should I do
I pictured myself as a lost little calf
Searching for a way back home
Surrounded with fear and danger
Not confident with my own decision
I’m afraid with every step that I take
Even though I know mistake teaches me to be wise
That’s life should be but I still don’t understand it
Everyday I keep on praying for guidance
But sometimes life was so cruel and unfair to me
I just keep staying strong and trying to figure it all out
The reason is a mystery
And it all happened beyond my control
How deep is my love?
I’m still not sure about it
But sooner or later I hope I will know
I hope that my heart will tell me the truth
I hope everything will be clear enough for me to understand
What was hidden in my life?
I need to uncover my real life
So that I’ll know how to handle the situation
And to make me closer to my own self
To know how deep is my love for him
To let the confusion become clear
As for me and him to proceed our life
This should not be a burden for him to wait for me
It will suffer him even more
Will he understand my situation?
Will he forgive me if my love wasn’t deep enough for him?
All that I can say right now is that my heart is still confuse
And this also suffer me personally
For not being able to understand myself
How am I supposed to trust and understand others if I can even trust myself
I hope I will not lie to myself and to him
But I believe that love will speak it words
Everything will feel like magic
Truly by:
Emma Gabrie (21/04/2011)
