Dear,
I know how much you love me but I’m not so sure how long it would last. I really appreciate how much you love me and I do really happy being with you, sharing my time with you. At this moment I’m still not sure what should I do. Every thing was so unclear and things are so confusing. I know how much it hurt you when I couldn’t decide my decision. It just that I think I still need time to think all about it. All this time, you’ve taught me the meaning of love and many more. You gave me inspiration like no others ever had. You make me feel so special. There are so much more that I could tell. Everyday feels like you never give up on me even though I know how stubborn I am. To be honest, I couldn’t tell whether my heart fell for you or not. All that I know is that there are tears in my heart with unknown reason. I wish that I knew what its all is about. Trapped in my own judgment, I was left without the good reason for all of this. I really like you but I’m not sure whether I can love you more. I know I feel guilty all this time. Maybe I do love you but it just that I don’t have the guts to tell you. There are reasons for this. And the reason is that I don’t want you to be hurt when knowing that I couldn’t love you more. I don’t want you to keep on waiting for me as our love is not from what I wanted it to. I don’t want you to love me more when I can’t even love you back. I know how much it will hurt you and will keep on hurting you more. I just couldn’t stand to see you sad. Sometimes, I wish I never know and met you before. But I couldn’t regret for knowing how much you care for me. I’m so happy for it. I know we’ve been together for so long and now I start to feel that we should stop this for I really care for you that I don’t want you to be sad. All your words that you said to me keep on spinning on my mind. I wonder how long it could disappear from my head. I can’t forget all those sweet words that you tell me and everything that we’ve been through. Honestly, our journey together is the best thing that I ever had and thank you for everything. I know that you can’t let me go easily just like I do but I think we should be separate from be together. Let just hope time can drowned the love that we ever had. Let the time fly so fast to leave all our sweet memories behind. I wish that you will find someone better to love that I can love you. And I hope you’ll be happy with someone that you love and loves you back. Please don’t wait for me for I can’t give the love that you want. Hope you can finally let me go. Thanks for everything.
From: Your love that will never be yours
(November 3, 2011)
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